I have no clue what I’m doing with this blog. Or with my life for that matter! Other than I know I’m on the island of Ibiza right now. A small island nestled in the Mediterranean off the coast of Spain. Living a simple life, learning to slow down and giving myself permission to take this time for me. And secretly believing it’s all mapped out or divinely timed?
I do know one thing and that is that it’s my birthday today. I’m 52 years young! A Happy Birthday shouts out to Clare, my beautiful half, and identical twin sister living back home in Dublin. And to my Mum, for it’s as much her day too. Lots & lots of love to you both! Figured what better day to launch my blog than on this day.
I also know that I’ve given up a huge part of my identity after spending 26 years building life back in New York. The sons I’ve left behind, who were off for their Freshman year of college when I left. My beautiful sisters in Connecticut, and all the wonderful friends I’ve made after a quarter-century of my life living in the US. Who would have known when I left last Nov 2019 that life as we knew it would change on many levels because of the pandemic. My sons are back in Brooklyn as a result of, homeschooling, and I feel now like I’ve deserted the kids, despite the fact they’re 19, strong-willed determined young men on their journey in life. Still, it adds some heaviness to my soul knowing they’re there and I’m here.
But as I contemplate my life to date, despite my age, I still feel like a child. Feeling lost & unsure of me. The uncertainty that comes with trying something completely new. Giving up all the old familiar surrounds of life in NY for a new country, a new language (which I’ve yet to master – blaming that partly on the fact that schools are shut down due to Covid so giving myself some bandwidth there but know it’s no excuse!), new friends, a new love, new surroundings, and some new cultures. I’m still not used to siesta time here. It’s actually a royal pain in the arse if I’m to be honest. Businesses & stores close at lunchtime for a few hours only to reopen and resume business again at 5pm. It can make for a disjointed day sometimes.
But as I wonder what the future holds, and am sure it’s the same for many people now forced to access their lives and readjust for their future, I’m still certain that this is where I’m meant to be now. My time for me, to be Mary in the Med. My time to slow down, ground myself, and get ready to dive into exploring what’s next. My lost soul is ready for the opportunity of new beginnings.
While I don’t have a marketing platform or an end game strategy, I’m taking a leap here bringing this blog to life. Seeing where it lands? Maybe it will resonate for some? And while I’ve never been strategic in my life, it’s not who I am, maybe it’s the Sagittarius in me? More of a wanderlust soul – I wish you could all experience the beauty of this island. I’m surrounded by nature, with the calming waters that I get to enjoy most days. Yes, I’ve turned into one of those badasses that brave the winter temperatures, Whim Hoff would be so proud of me! I’m in a beautiful spot. Life is simple right now and it’s my time to just “be”.
I welcome you to join me on my adventure. Your support and feedback would mean the world to me. Subscribe to my blog and follow me on Instagram while I tap into the creative magic this island lends itself to, still a little unsure where life’s taking me but open to the experience that comes with living it now.